Embracing the Father

Heart heavy, I close my eyes

And let my thoughts wander on a starry night

Soul searching, I long for the keys

That hold the power to my mind's release

Heart breaking, I ache for peace

As I ponder the things that have gone amiss

Distance widening, I gasp at the shut door

Why have I done this to my Creator?

Perhaps it was out of fear

Of both the known and the unknown, that has brought me here

Or perhaps it was out of worry

Based on a baseless ideology

Or maybe even out of doubt

That I'm worthy of the Son's love poured out

Or maybe I just slam my doors in desperate effort

To keep all out and not get hurt

But is it worth it, bearing arms?

Will I never let myself be cradled in love's arms?

Finally, in the midst of the silence, you call my name

In the midst of the darkness, I see the flame

The truth hits me and I begin to comprehend

You were with me right from the beginning, and will be until my final breath

In You, there's peace that passes all understanding

There's joy that knows no ending

And love that depends not on my fickle feelings

Through You, I can let go of all past hurt

I can forgive the perpetrators

And forge ahead on my path unperturbed

With You, I can fight battles and claim victory

I can run unhindered, unashamed and free

While not letting the past define me

Oh, that I may possess the grace to possess this layer

Eyes closed, to my Creator up above, I send a prayer.